In a twinkling of an eye...
Kate Hasson
Kate Hasson
my girls have turned from babies into toddlers and as many mothers have warned me, it’ll just keep getting faster.
Last night I packed away Charlotte’s old clothes that don’t fit any longer to save for our next baby (someday soon, please!?) and brought out Suzannah’s old clothes to pass on to Charlotte. I got super emotional with this small transition. As I looked at Travis through tears, all I could say was, “It’s going too quickly...” Yes, the hard days are no fun and I usually look forward to putting the girls to bed at night and having my own time. But honestly, it truly, really only feels like last year that Suzannah was born. Can I really be the mother of two, with hopefully another on the way!? Time is passing and it scares me. I came to the realization that of all the things I hold most dear to me, I can’t really hold on to my two most “prized possessions”. I love my girls more than life itself and I can’t even keep them. They are growing into little girls and then someday will be a boy’s girlfriend, and then a man’s wife, and then a child’s mother, and then...and then I may be gone. And it will be all over. Oh, that I will take time to love them, not be busy with life.
Last night I packed away Charlotte’s old clothes that don’t fit any longer to save for our next baby (someday soon, please!?) and brought out Suzannah’s old clothes to pass on to Charlotte. I got super emotional with this small transition. As I looked at Travis through tears, all I could say was, “It’s going too quickly...” Yes, the hard days are no fun and I usually look forward to putting the girls to bed at night and having my own time. But honestly, it truly, really only feels like last year that Suzannah was born. Can I really be the mother of two, with hopefully another on the way!? Time is passing and it scares me. I came to the realization that of all the things I hold most dear to me, I can’t really hold on to my two most “prized possessions”. I love my girls more than life itself and I can’t even keep them. They are growing into little girls and then someday will be a boy’s girlfriend, and then a man’s wife, and then a child’s mother, and then...and then I may be gone. And it will be all over. Oh, that I will take time to love them, not be busy with life.
As I grew shaky from sorrow and knowing that I have no grip on life itself I was comforted by God’s promise of Himself. Although I love Suzannah and Charlotte, my love for God runs so much more deep. I know that He will never leave me or forsake me. He holds me in His righteous right hand. He is steady and secure. He will never change. I can always put my faith in Him and will never be let down. He never sleeps nor slumbers but watches me both night and day. He is the Rock of Ages that I can hide in. He is outside of time! He has known me before I was even in my mother’s womb. I am thankful to be able to rest my short life in His strong arms.
Suzannah at only a couple weeks old in her Aunt Jenny’s arms (who is expecting her own first daughter in just a few months!)
Charlotte, just 3 days old with her beamingly proud older sister.
Suzannah at only a couple weeks old in her Aunt Jenny’s arms (who is expecting her own first daughter in just a few months!)
Charlotte, just 3 days old with her beamingly proud older sister.
My two big girls at Yosemite just a few days ago.A song chorus that came to my mind while writing out my thoughts was
“My life is in Your hands
And though I may not see clearly
I will lift my voice and sing
Cause your love does amazing things
Lord, I know, my life is in Your hands.
I trust You, Lord,
My life is in Your hands.”
My Life is in Your Hands by Kathy Trocolli
